‘你好吗？’一句简单的问候，同时也可以隐藏着许许多多关心对方的情感。
我们可能在一段时间与某人逐渐熟悉后，就忘记做一些基本的礼仪，说一些简单的问候语。我们或许也开始作假设（make assumptions），以为对方依然是如此对你好，不需多操心了，或者一些举动是多余的。很多时候我们以自己的方式去关怀对方，自以为已达到目的了，没有去检讨自己的方式是否有照顾到或忽略了对方的感受。渐渐地，当体谅和关怀之心已不被对方感受到，就影响了双方的感情，开始出现裂痕。
修补不会难。只要你是用心的，将心比心去聆听对方的心声。纵使他不会直接指出，但以你们之间的感情和默契，你不会太难发现到问题所在。如果你是真心体贴地为对方着想，就多显示自己对他的关心，去慰问他，多聆听他心中的话语。
他需要的也许不是花言巧语或哪些很难办到的事，可能只是你发自内心对他的主动关怀。’Say it when you mean it’ – 说些你真正在乎的话，哪怕那只是‘谢谢你’，‘对不起’，‘你好吗’，‘我想你’或‘我爱你’，让他感受到你的真诚用心。有些关怀方式看似很简单，却不是很多人能了解其用意及真正做到。若你已经麻木了，你可能已把基本的问候关心都忘了。
别忘了基础是你可以在感情上继续往上建筑的原因。一切就从基本做好吧！
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Friday, September 28, 2007
你如何爱国？
每逢国庆日，我总少不了抒写我对国家的看法和流露的情感。今年，我是迟到了，但是我还是有话要说。
今年，与以往不同的是，趁大马2007旅游年时有幸招待了来自瑞士和德国的朋友在我的地盘观光。瑞士朋友在这里逗留了10天，我也陪他南上北下在大马旅游。我很敢相信他一定没有看过大马旅游局拍摄的旅游宣传片（即使有也无妨），事先没有对大马存着任何的期望和幻想而来。庆幸的是，之前因为工作实习他有在中国至少呆了整半年，也许更坏的他有见识过了，不会太糟糕。再说，他也对中餐比较习惯了，对于美食他跃跃欲试。
我毕竟不是大马旅游局聘请的，自然会以本地人/本身的角度来介绍和诠释这个国家。无论是褒或贬，好或坏，我都会对他老实供出，借此他也比较能深入地了解这个国家。他会对这里的多元种族社会，和多元文化非常感兴趣和好奇。他所能在这十天里观察到的不过是较表面的。比方说，这里的各种族和谐相处，能共存共荣，一开始他觉得很难得和特别。谈到种族，文化和宗教，很难不从国家的历史，尤其是政治谈起。我常说，这个国家很多方面都很好，就只是政治管理很坏。几乎所有的种族和宗教问题的根源都来自政治。也因为目前政治腐败，经济，教育，治安和人民的生活素质都在下降着。我就表达了我的忧虑和解释了政治如何能腐败。
我批评的语气很多时候都重了一些，尤其是谈到了目前的政府。我的外国朋友们丝毫没有怀疑过这是我爱国的表现，不会把政府与国家挂钩起来。我一直很在意有时他们会误会我的意思，特别是提到了华人社会在大马的处境。我不想要误导他们认为全都是种族问题压倒一切，以为这个国家是马来人欺压华人和其他同胞。平时，我身边充斥太多直接以种族情绪和种族有色眼镜来看待问题的人（包括一些朋友们）。我向他们传达的是，那是很多政党（特别是单一种族政党）制造出来的社会问题。我相信，当我向德国朋友提及和分析国内的种族问题是，他比较有同感，因为在他国家的黑暗历史里已出现过以煽动种族情绪来达到政治目的的章节。
批评不是埋怨或发牢骚，它是积极的。批评是因为爱之深，责之切。批评是因为你看到了问题，意识到有些地方不妥，而想设法去改变现状。批评是因为你有认知和醒觉。若是埋怨或发牢骚，那只是发泄情绪而已，不会有意愿做出什么行动来改善。
比起昏庸贪腐的政客和财主到处释放美好的感觉，其跟随者歌颂起舞，和还有不少不满但继续哑忍过日子的人民，我不平则鸣批判国家社会不公平不正义的事更是一种直接的爱国表现。我真的希望国家会更好，也愿意为它服务把它变得更好。
不少华人有时那样问：‘我爱这个国家，但这个国家爱我吗？’首先，国家不是人物，就好比如，你无法问土地，树林和河流，你爱我吗？第二，为何要这个国家爱你，你才可以爱这个国家呢？我会怀疑你说第一句时的诚意。第三，你爱这个国家的基础是什么？你会继续为它付出（施）吗，还是会因为自己没有得到（受）或得到不够好处而放弃爱这个国家？美国前总统肯尼迪曾说过那么一句著名的话：‘Ask not what your country can do for you; ask what you can do for your country’。若你真的爱上一个人，你会轻易放弃他吗，而不去思考你能为他做些什么？同样的道理应用在国家上。施比受更富有；无法/没有能力付出（施）的人的爱是贫瘠的。
或许普遍上民众的无力感源自于强势的政治宣传和力量牢牢控制着民众的思想，认为改变是徒劳的。很多人都认定国阵政府会永远执政，及相信无论以后谁来执政都一样。都一样吗？为什么？我的朋友们的答复是：天下的乌鸦一样黑。这已显示了他们已全然放弃了国家政治的改变，纵容人民一再被蒙蔽和欺骗。但是，我们真的需要那么消极吗？要知道，无论什么社会或政治运动，都必须是群体运动。有你的支持和参与，会有一定的分别的。不关心重大的国家社会课题，一直回避它，又要我们怎么相信你是爱国的呢？就好像你的嘴说你多么多么爱一棵树，可是你看到了它感染了疾病，渐渐枯萎时，你又不给它浇水，施肥和施药，你的行动就说明了一切。真正地爱国也不是等待别人劳动，和收割，坐享其成地分享最后的成果。所以，我本身不喜欢有人会有这样的想法：‘唉呀，目前国家那么糟糕，那么乱，我先（到国外）避一避，这些事情（改革）就交由你们来做吧！待情况比较好了，我就回来。’问题是，为什么你不可以一起做，成为他们的一份子呢？我认为参与运动，未必一定要走到最前头，但是你的关心和支持还是有效应和力量的，无论你在哪里。然后，建立起正确和全面的是非判断与分析认知也很重要。要爱国，就要真正地认识它及关心它。
遇到我的亲戚朋友时，当谈起我的未来前程，他们都那么坚决地建议我好好在国外发展。连我的家人都如此说。我知道他们都在关心我，所以我谢了他们。我明白，国家目前的情况，难于阻挡更多的人才外流。不是所有外流的人才都是逃兵，只是暂时的策略。很大的可能性是，我大学毕业后，我会呆在国外发展至少还有好几年。待我学得更多更精深，建立起了一定的基础时，将来对国家会有更大的贡献。纵使我未必会站在政治的前线，我也要尽我公民的责任，为这一片我热爱的土地付出。我不会允许，也不希望看到国家政治政党贪污腐败，及社会存在着不公平的政策和条文。我还要我的下一代在这里住下去，所以我要尽我能力给他们塑造更好的环境和条件成长和发展。要改变未来，就从现在开始！有醒觉的人民组织起来强大的公民力量来撼倒腐败和种族主义的政府，并不是梦。
今年，与以往不同的是，趁大马2007旅游年时有幸招待了来自瑞士和德国的朋友在我的地盘观光。瑞士朋友在这里逗留了10天，我也陪他南上北下在大马旅游。我很敢相信他一定没有看过大马旅游局拍摄的旅游宣传片（即使有也无妨），事先没有对大马存着任何的期望和幻想而来。庆幸的是，之前因为工作实习他有在中国至少呆了整半年，也许更坏的他有见识过了，不会太糟糕。再说，他也对中餐比较习惯了，对于美食他跃跃欲试。
我毕竟不是大马旅游局聘请的，自然会以本地人/本身的角度来介绍和诠释这个国家。无论是褒或贬，好或坏，我都会对他老实供出，借此他也比较能深入地了解这个国家。他会对这里的多元种族社会，和多元文化非常感兴趣和好奇。他所能在这十天里观察到的不过是较表面的。比方说，这里的各种族和谐相处，能共存共荣，一开始他觉得很难得和特别。谈到种族，文化和宗教，很难不从国家的历史，尤其是政治谈起。我常说，这个国家很多方面都很好，就只是政治管理很坏。几乎所有的种族和宗教问题的根源都来自政治。也因为目前政治腐败，经济，教育，治安和人民的生活素质都在下降着。我就表达了我的忧虑和解释了政治如何能腐败。
我批评的语气很多时候都重了一些，尤其是谈到了目前的政府。我的外国朋友们丝毫没有怀疑过这是我爱国的表现，不会把政府与国家挂钩起来。我一直很在意有时他们会误会我的意思，特别是提到了华人社会在大马的处境。我不想要误导他们认为全都是种族问题压倒一切，以为这个国家是马来人欺压华人和其他同胞。平时，我身边充斥太多直接以种族情绪和种族有色眼镜来看待问题的人（包括一些朋友们）。我向他们传达的是，那是很多政党（特别是单一种族政党）制造出来的社会问题。我相信，当我向德国朋友提及和分析国内的种族问题是，他比较有同感，因为在他国家的黑暗历史里已出现过以煽动种族情绪来达到政治目的的章节。
批评不是埋怨或发牢骚，它是积极的。批评是因为爱之深，责之切。批评是因为你看到了问题，意识到有些地方不妥，而想设法去改变现状。批评是因为你有认知和醒觉。若是埋怨或发牢骚，那只是发泄情绪而已，不会有意愿做出什么行动来改善。
比起昏庸贪腐的政客和财主到处释放美好的感觉，其跟随者歌颂起舞，和还有不少不满但继续哑忍过日子的人民，我不平则鸣批判国家社会不公平不正义的事更是一种直接的爱国表现。我真的希望国家会更好，也愿意为它服务把它变得更好。
不少华人有时那样问：‘我爱这个国家，但这个国家爱我吗？’首先，国家不是人物，就好比如，你无法问土地，树林和河流，你爱我吗？第二，为何要这个国家爱你，你才可以爱这个国家呢？我会怀疑你说第一句时的诚意。第三，你爱这个国家的基础是什么？你会继续为它付出（施）吗，还是会因为自己没有得到（受）或得到不够好处而放弃爱这个国家？美国前总统肯尼迪曾说过那么一句著名的话：‘Ask not what your country can do for you; ask what you can do for your country’。若你真的爱上一个人，你会轻易放弃他吗，而不去思考你能为他做些什么？同样的道理应用在国家上。施比受更富有；无法/没有能力付出（施）的人的爱是贫瘠的。
或许普遍上民众的无力感源自于强势的政治宣传和力量牢牢控制着民众的思想，认为改变是徒劳的。很多人都认定国阵政府会永远执政，及相信无论以后谁来执政都一样。都一样吗？为什么？我的朋友们的答复是：天下的乌鸦一样黑。这已显示了他们已全然放弃了国家政治的改变，纵容人民一再被蒙蔽和欺骗。但是，我们真的需要那么消极吗？要知道，无论什么社会或政治运动，都必须是群体运动。有你的支持和参与，会有一定的分别的。不关心重大的国家社会课题，一直回避它，又要我们怎么相信你是爱国的呢？就好像你的嘴说你多么多么爱一棵树，可是你看到了它感染了疾病，渐渐枯萎时，你又不给它浇水，施肥和施药，你的行动就说明了一切。真正地爱国也不是等待别人劳动，和收割，坐享其成地分享最后的成果。所以，我本身不喜欢有人会有这样的想法：‘唉呀，目前国家那么糟糕，那么乱，我先（到国外）避一避，这些事情（改革）就交由你们来做吧！待情况比较好了，我就回来。’问题是，为什么你不可以一起做，成为他们的一份子呢？我认为参与运动，未必一定要走到最前头，但是你的关心和支持还是有效应和力量的，无论你在哪里。然后，建立起正确和全面的是非判断与分析认知也很重要。要爱国，就要真正地认识它及关心它。
遇到我的亲戚朋友时，当谈起我的未来前程，他们都那么坚决地建议我好好在国外发展。连我的家人都如此说。我知道他们都在关心我，所以我谢了他们。我明白，国家目前的情况，难于阻挡更多的人才外流。不是所有外流的人才都是逃兵，只是暂时的策略。很大的可能性是，我大学毕业后，我会呆在国外发展至少还有好几年。待我学得更多更精深，建立起了一定的基础时，将来对国家会有更大的贡献。纵使我未必会站在政治的前线，我也要尽我公民的责任，为这一片我热爱的土地付出。我不会允许，也不希望看到国家政治政党贪污腐败，及社会存在着不公平的政策和条文。我还要我的下一代在这里住下去，所以我要尽我能力给他们塑造更好的环境和条件成长和发展。要改变未来，就从现在开始！有醒觉的人民组织起来强大的公民力量来撼倒腐败和种族主义的政府，并不是梦。
Monday, September 24, 2007
与杨生见面
昨天，我第二次拜访杨白杨先生。对于他，我一开始就很赞叹他的写作能力。更让我吃惊的是，在国庆日那天，我第一次登门造访他参与一个别开生面的‘国庆英雄大会’，不曾露面的我竟然他也认识。他说，他记得我是那位学记反媒体垄断运动的召集人之一，也读过我写的那篇文章《我曾经沉默，但不是站在你的大多数!...》。就只是因为那篇文章，已对我形成了印象。
当时，与他握手言欢后，很快地，他就问我：“那天在马华党大会那位与黄家定（马华总会长）握手的林志翰，是不是你？”我迅速反应：“哇，那篇那么小张的照片新闻你也注意到！？冤枉呀，他的名字竟然与我一模一样，影‘衰’了我。更巧的是，他的身份也是海外留学生啊！再加上照片拍得不清不楚，我真是有如跳入巴生河水洗也洗不清！”他幽了我一默：“你应该写一封誊清信寄去《当今大马》和《独立新闻在线》，郑重声明写说此林志翰非彼林志翰，请认清事实避免造成不必要的误会”我苦笑说：“是啊，实在应该！”
我实在不敢期望一位写过了八千或九千多篇三十年评论文章，见过许多大大小小人物的他，会知道和记得一位只写过一篇被刊登和转载的文章的我。不仅如此，他还会关心我，同时想知道他自己是否对我看走眼了（针对那位进入马华的林志翰）。
那天的英雄大会，首次见面我并没有与他多谈，因为那天实在太多人了。几乎所有的人都知道他就快要离开大马，举家搬去澳洲与两个大女儿相聚。他在《当今大马》每日撰写的专栏也因此宣告在他的第五百篇国庆日当天停笔。身为他的忠实读者的我（和他许许多多朋友同事），觉得很惋惜但是可谅解他老人家的心愿。当晚，喜欢唱反调的他，听说很多人今年表明不会在屋前挂国旗，他就偏偏要挂。不仅如此，他还找来了一支很高的竹竿将国旗挂起来。讽刺的是，已多年未挂国旗的他，竟在搬去澳洲前一年才做。
他给所有来宾的见面/送别礼是一整套他撰写的书籍。他也满忙的，落力地为每一本书签上他的大名。我在他家呆了2小时左右，就要离开了。所以，昨天通过黄妙仪朋友的亲自安排，那是一个最好的交流交谈机会，也是我回去英国之前和他搬去澳洲之前的最后一次。他还亲自下厨款待我们。健谈和热情的他，使我和妙仪流连忘返，难于拒绝他的好意一直留到了晚餐时间。那七，八小时的会谈，多多少少让我学习到了他部分的人生精华，也让我更进一步认识他，进入了他的内心世界，读到了一般上刊登文章不会写的内容。他的见识，分析见解，和绘声绘影的描述，让我津津乐道。当然我不会在此长篇大论地提会谈的内容。若能够像他那么积极，幽默，坦然地面对人生，活得应该也会开心。
他说，年轻人要多写文章，况且如今文章根本不需经过别人之手发布出去。自从有了部落格后，人人都可以成为作家。好文章的影响力非同凡响，主要在于一种思想的传播和其教育与启发别人的潜能。所以，他说，黄妙仪要写100篇，林志翰也应该写100篇。若更多人加入这行列写作，阅读者将有机会读到更多，思想或知识的传播也变得更广和快，那么就能影响和启发更多的读者针对某些课题的认知。
我想，我可没有把写部落格当日记的习惯，很难持之有恒地写作。（既然那是我的业余兴趣，就可要看心情了）其实我也支持杨白杨先生的观点，希望我不会变得太懒。
当时，与他握手言欢后，很快地，他就问我：“那天在马华党大会那位与黄家定（马华总会长）握手的林志翰，是不是你？”我迅速反应：“哇，那篇那么小张的照片新闻你也注意到！？冤枉呀，他的名字竟然与我一模一样，影‘衰’了我。更巧的是，他的身份也是海外留学生啊！再加上照片拍得不清不楚，我真是有如跳入巴生河水洗也洗不清！”他幽了我一默：“你应该写一封誊清信寄去《当今大马》和《独立新闻在线》，郑重声明写说此林志翰非彼林志翰，请认清事实避免造成不必要的误会”我苦笑说：“是啊，实在应该！”
我实在不敢期望一位写过了八千或九千多篇三十年评论文章，见过许多大大小小人物的他，会知道和记得一位只写过一篇被刊登和转载的文章的我。不仅如此，他还会关心我，同时想知道他自己是否对我看走眼了（针对那位进入马华的林志翰）。
那天的英雄大会，首次见面我并没有与他多谈，因为那天实在太多人了。几乎所有的人都知道他就快要离开大马，举家搬去澳洲与两个大女儿相聚。他在《当今大马》每日撰写的专栏也因此宣告在他的第五百篇国庆日当天停笔。身为他的忠实读者的我（和他许许多多朋友同事），觉得很惋惜但是可谅解他老人家的心愿。当晚，喜欢唱反调的他，听说很多人今年表明不会在屋前挂国旗，他就偏偏要挂。不仅如此，他还找来了一支很高的竹竿将国旗挂起来。讽刺的是，已多年未挂国旗的他，竟在搬去澳洲前一年才做。
他给所有来宾的见面/送别礼是一整套他撰写的书籍。他也满忙的，落力地为每一本书签上他的大名。我在他家呆了2小时左右，就要离开了。所以，昨天通过黄妙仪朋友的亲自安排，那是一个最好的交流交谈机会，也是我回去英国之前和他搬去澳洲之前的最后一次。他还亲自下厨款待我们。健谈和热情的他，使我和妙仪流连忘返，难于拒绝他的好意一直留到了晚餐时间。那七，八小时的会谈，多多少少让我学习到了他部分的人生精华，也让我更进一步认识他，进入了他的内心世界，读到了一般上刊登文章不会写的内容。他的见识，分析见解，和绘声绘影的描述，让我津津乐道。当然我不会在此长篇大论地提会谈的内容。若能够像他那么积极，幽默，坦然地面对人生，活得应该也会开心。
他说，年轻人要多写文章，况且如今文章根本不需经过别人之手发布出去。自从有了部落格后，人人都可以成为作家。好文章的影响力非同凡响，主要在于一种思想的传播和其教育与启发别人的潜能。所以，他说，黄妙仪要写100篇，林志翰也应该写100篇。若更多人加入这行列写作，阅读者将有机会读到更多，思想或知识的传播也变得更广和快，那么就能影响和启发更多的读者针对某些课题的认知。
我想，我可没有把写部落格当日记的习惯，很难持之有恒地写作。（既然那是我的业余兴趣，就可要看心情了）其实我也支持杨白杨先生的观点，希望我不会变得太懒。
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
若要人不知，除非己莫为
'If you want people do not know, unless you don't do it.'
This is a strong advice to the government today which its senior ministers announced the crackdown on the bloggers and cyber activists.
Quote: "We want blogs to be clean, a place to obtain accurate information, a reference point for honest opinion, not a platform to abuse and slander people," Nazri, minister in the prime minister's department, said.
Blogs and cyberspace are the breakthrough to obtain in depth information about the blackbox operations of the ruling party, and some insider stories about the opposition parties as well. One thing to be certain is, the mainstream news is never a channel to provide accurate information in the first place. They lost the credibility to pronounce that because according to the global chart of The Freedom of Press, they did even worse than some African countries. It is such a shame that we couldn't express our honest opinions about the governance. That's why many people are inspired and enlightened by the civil movement that demands a clean, and transparent government and Freedom of Expression, through cyberspace. I am very sure that many well-known bloggers such as Jeff Ooi, they are responsible, credible and mature enough in their writings and most likely could provide us the stories and analysis closer to the reality, than the mainstream media which tries to hide many things. I need not to give many examples, it happens just too often. The possible involvement of DPM Najib Abdul Razak in the Mongolian Murder case is the glaring example how the mainstream medias were instructed to hide the stories.
So, i urge the ruling party and the government to be brave to face public's scrutiny. If you do not do something wrong, let's not be afraid, but please be very afraid if you ever did. No matter how hard you try to hide is in vain. Just wait for the 'judgment' days -- we bloggers will not be afraid expose anything related to hypocrisy and corruption and abuse of power of what you have done. This thing will go down to history one day!
I know why these days you, the ruling party is so impatient with bloggers. Because you are afraid to face the truth now! If you think bloggers are simply slandering, abusing and defaming people, please clarify to us the real story behind which is different than the blogger's version. Come, sue them if you dare. This is still not Singapore, you cannot stop political awareness through cyberspace! Old and corrupt politics must die!
This is a strong advice to the government today which its senior ministers announced the crackdown on the bloggers and cyber activists.
Quote: "We want blogs to be clean, a place to obtain accurate information, a reference point for honest opinion, not a platform to abuse and slander people," Nazri, minister in the prime minister's department, said.
Blogs and cyberspace are the breakthrough to obtain in depth information about the blackbox operations of the ruling party, and some insider stories about the opposition parties as well. One thing to be certain is, the mainstream news is never a channel to provide accurate information in the first place. They lost the credibility to pronounce that because according to the global chart of The Freedom of Press, they did even worse than some African countries. It is such a shame that we couldn't express our honest opinions about the governance. That's why many people are inspired and enlightened by the civil movement that demands a clean, and transparent government and Freedom of Expression, through cyberspace. I am very sure that many well-known bloggers such as Jeff Ooi, they are responsible, credible and mature enough in their writings and most likely could provide us the stories and analysis closer to the reality, than the mainstream media which tries to hide many things. I need not to give many examples, it happens just too often. The possible involvement of DPM Najib Abdul Razak in the Mongolian Murder case is the glaring example how the mainstream medias were instructed to hide the stories.
So, i urge the ruling party and the government to be brave to face public's scrutiny. If you do not do something wrong, let's not be afraid, but please be very afraid if you ever did. No matter how hard you try to hide is in vain. Just wait for the 'judgment' days -- we bloggers will not be afraid expose anything related to hypocrisy and corruption and abuse of power of what you have done. This thing will go down to history one day!
I know why these days you, the ruling party is so impatient with bloggers. Because you are afraid to face the truth now! If you think bloggers are simply slandering, abusing and defaming people, please clarify to us the real story behind which is different than the blogger's version. Come, sue them if you dare. This is still not Singapore, you cannot stop political awareness through cyberspace! Old and corrupt politics must die!
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
老朋友们
才在昨天我发现，原来我学记朋友圈的MSN group的网站因为太久没有活动，结果被关闭了。我觉得有些遗憾和伤感。以前我们每年都会举办的至少一次的聚会，现在也没有人再提起了，我能不伤感吗？也许现在我们拥有各自的生活，已失去了过去的情怀。有很多朋友已好久没见面了，不知道他们还好吗？
在两个星期前的小学朋友十年大聚会，原本由于要迁就一些已开始工作的朋友，才从去较远的地方一日游改去吉隆坡一日游。结果那些被迁就的朋友最终还是选择了不露面。相反的，我的小学好友还特地从老远的柔佛士古来工大风尘仆仆赶过来，他的这种精神实在让我感叹 --- 那就是有心人和不是有心人的分别了。同样是已开始工作的另外两位朋友最后也是出席了。我大部分的时间身在国外，我非常希望能乘这个难得的机会见一见大家，有些人还是选择错过了。我觉得很可惜。
虽然地点选择在闹市的广场里和出席人数不是很理想（对于一个被称作‘十年大聚会’的聚会来说），我们同样很开心地度过了那一天。我们上去了KLCC的sky bridge，晚上还去了Luna Bar (那全都是我的第一次)。间中我们有说有笑，感性和疯狂时刻都有。我真的很感激，因为至少我还有一班朋友在乎。吊诡的是，我的小学母校是在巴生，但是当天出席的竟然没有一个人是来自巴生/住在巴生的。以前我小学朋友圈的MSN group网站也是半天掉，总是热不起来，好在这两年来看到了一些热心的朋友参与和贡献。记得去年年底，有一位朋友在我们的网站宣布她的结婚消息，即刻造成轰动！该消息的讨论区的参与度甚至创新纪录，一些从来没有在该网站留言的也来凑一凑热闹，很搞笑！我的老友思满做得最多—他甚至完成了一个不可能的任务--- 他做了我当年六年级M班的通讯录，也包括了部分老师的联络方式。真的不简单。我希望我们这一群小学朋友可以继续联系，来年再举办聚会。我更期待再10年以后会有另一次的大聚会！
在两个星期前的小学朋友十年大聚会，原本由于要迁就一些已开始工作的朋友，才从去较远的地方一日游改去吉隆坡一日游。结果那些被迁就的朋友最终还是选择了不露面。相反的，我的小学好友还特地从老远的柔佛士古来工大风尘仆仆赶过来，他的这种精神实在让我感叹 --- 那就是有心人和不是有心人的分别了。同样是已开始工作的另外两位朋友最后也是出席了。我大部分的时间身在国外，我非常希望能乘这个难得的机会见一见大家，有些人还是选择错过了。我觉得很可惜。
虽然地点选择在闹市的广场里和出席人数不是很理想（对于一个被称作‘十年大聚会’的聚会来说），我们同样很开心地度过了那一天。我们上去了KLCC的sky bridge，晚上还去了Luna Bar (那全都是我的第一次)。间中我们有说有笑，感性和疯狂时刻都有。我真的很感激，因为至少我还有一班朋友在乎。吊诡的是，我的小学母校是在巴生，但是当天出席的竟然没有一个人是来自巴生/住在巴生的。以前我小学朋友圈的MSN group网站也是半天掉，总是热不起来，好在这两年来看到了一些热心的朋友参与和贡献。记得去年年底，有一位朋友在我们的网站宣布她的结婚消息，即刻造成轰动！该消息的讨论区的参与度甚至创新纪录，一些从来没有在该网站留言的也来凑一凑热闹，很搞笑！我的老友思满做得最多—他甚至完成了一个不可能的任务--- 他做了我当年六年级M班的通讯录，也包括了部分老师的联络方式。真的不简单。我希望我们这一群小学朋友可以继续联系，来年再举办聚会。我更期待再10年以后会有另一次的大聚会！
Sunday, July 15, 2007
Small thought
Life is a choice. Choose how do you look at 'Happiness'?:
1)Always happy with what you have
2)Always work hard to pursue your happiness
Yea, we shall not trap in the frame of the mindset when comes to choices. Both answers are still THE answer you should select - they are not conflicting at all.
You should be happy with what you have because this belief will not make you easily letting go of something you would probably regret someday; in the meantime, you should always work hard to pursue your happiness, to bring up the level of your happiness, so that you could be happier with what you have achieved so far.
Happiness won't fall just right from the sky. Those who works for it would appreciate it better.
1)Always happy with what you have
2)Always work hard to pursue your happiness
Yea, we shall not trap in the frame of the mindset when comes to choices. Both answers are still THE answer you should select - they are not conflicting at all.
You should be happy with what you have because this belief will not make you easily letting go of something you would probably regret someday; in the meantime, you should always work hard to pursue your happiness, to bring up the level of your happiness, so that you could be happier with what you have achieved so far.
Happiness won't fall just right from the sky. Those who works for it would appreciate it better.
Saturday, June 30, 2007
无奈又失望的三年总结
就在星期四那天傍晚，我的成绩公布了。那象征着我三年来的奋斗，成绩却再次让我沮丧。我已战至最后一天。成绩公布的前一天，我还对我的口试表现满意，有信心可以把握那机会跳跃一级至二级上等荣誉学位。对我来说，我一直不敢冀望一级荣誉学位，因为我明白自己当前的能力到哪里。不是我不要求最好的成绩，只因我从来不好高骛远，只要求自己交出最佳的表现，尽最大的能力去考取好成绩。
我想，在各科分数和研究报告分数还未到手之前作太多的分析是徒然的。目前最大败笔的可疑之处是我的毕业研究。朋友都说我明知山有虎，偏向虎山行—去选了一个打分非常苛刻的导师。那么凑巧的，我的6个选择当中又选中他。我毅然尝试用表现说服他。我看来最后可没有办到，否则也许我都不需要出席第二次的口试。
我不想给什么藉口来推搪，我认为今年可是我表现更好的一年，一切都在进步当中。我一直非常努力地达至我要的基本目标。我承认，我确实还有一些弱点，比如说在语言应用和表达上。这一点，尤其在口试时是不利的事情。有时，我认为，特别是在我的科系，批改考卷时往往会有一些主观意念影响分数。语文仍是我的一个显著的障碍，部分解释为何我难以获得一级的分数。其实我真的很想知道到底发生了什么事，导致我功亏一篑。
对我来说，这不是我想看到的。所以也难以掩盖我的失落。这不是接不接受事实的问题，而是以什么心态来接受。那已是无法改变的事实了，我只能无奈和失望的接受。我真的已尽了我最大的能力了。有这么一种结果，对于别人的冷言冷语和如何看待我，我有苦难言。我要如何期待别人能理解我呢？功利主义和分数至上的人们只会以当前的数字和成绩来衡量。我的努力，奋斗和挣扎，他们会明白吗？目前，我只能面对这一切，我不奢望那些不太认识我，接近我的人理解我，我只求我最亲密的朋友们和家人能明白我的处境。我要的是你们更大的支持和鼓励，因为我还有前路要走。虽然我的成绩如此，但是已让我低飞过关进入我的硕士年。可以肯定的是，硕士年将会奠定我的潜能和最终的兴趣，是否将来会在本行继续发展。
我不喜欢也不认同考试成绩是衡量一个人聪不聪明的说法。考试成绩也不是可以让自己虚荣的东西，它充其量可以是给自己在该科系的一个评估。这次是给我的一个警讯，也给我下一次机会去证明自己的潜能和实力。我一定会很很认真和积极地面对未来的一年。我不甘心。我要证明给自己看，我是可以达到一定的水平，再尝试突破极限。
希望你们在阅读以后，可以在未来日子继续为我鼓舞和打气。有你们的支持，肯定如虎添翼，我的信念会更加强！
我想，在各科分数和研究报告分数还未到手之前作太多的分析是徒然的。目前最大败笔的可疑之处是我的毕业研究。朋友都说我明知山有虎，偏向虎山行—去选了一个打分非常苛刻的导师。那么凑巧的，我的6个选择当中又选中他。我毅然尝试用表现说服他。我看来最后可没有办到，否则也许我都不需要出席第二次的口试。
我不想给什么藉口来推搪，我认为今年可是我表现更好的一年，一切都在进步当中。我一直非常努力地达至我要的基本目标。我承认，我确实还有一些弱点，比如说在语言应用和表达上。这一点，尤其在口试时是不利的事情。有时，我认为，特别是在我的科系，批改考卷时往往会有一些主观意念影响分数。语文仍是我的一个显著的障碍，部分解释为何我难以获得一级的分数。其实我真的很想知道到底发生了什么事，导致我功亏一篑。
对我来说，这不是我想看到的。所以也难以掩盖我的失落。这不是接不接受事实的问题，而是以什么心态来接受。那已是无法改变的事实了，我只能无奈和失望的接受。我真的已尽了我最大的能力了。有这么一种结果，对于别人的冷言冷语和如何看待我，我有苦难言。我要如何期待别人能理解我呢？功利主义和分数至上的人们只会以当前的数字和成绩来衡量。我的努力，奋斗和挣扎，他们会明白吗？目前，我只能面对这一切，我不奢望那些不太认识我，接近我的人理解我，我只求我最亲密的朋友们和家人能明白我的处境。我要的是你们更大的支持和鼓励，因为我还有前路要走。虽然我的成绩如此，但是已让我低飞过关进入我的硕士年。可以肯定的是，硕士年将会奠定我的潜能和最终的兴趣，是否将来会在本行继续发展。
我不喜欢也不认同考试成绩是衡量一个人聪不聪明的说法。考试成绩也不是可以让自己虚荣的东西，它充其量可以是给自己在该科系的一个评估。这次是给我的一个警讯，也给我下一次机会去证明自己的潜能和实力。我一定会很很认真和积极地面对未来的一年。我不甘心。我要证明给自己看，我是可以达到一定的水平，再尝试突破极限。
希望你们在阅读以后，可以在未来日子继续为我鼓舞和打气。有你们的支持，肯定如虎添翼，我的信念会更加强！
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Finally...
It was so tough until i have to fight 'til the last minute to decide the fate of my degree result. I was called for second viva, so i had no choice but to scrap my trip to Lake Constance at the last minute. Well, that's not a big deal for me now. Everything's over, finally i'm done for my undergraduate studies!!! I'll be back for Master degree 3 months later.
It seems like there is no time for me to rest. I gotta move out of house before i can go back home! yea, I'm already waiting for this day for much too long. Looking forward to see everyone i miss. I'll be arriving on 3rd July. So, see ya! :D
p/s: I felt very strange that one day when i opened my mailbox, one of my blog entry suddenly becomes the host of a forum for discussion about my country. Very interesting. Maybe one day i'll answer them.
It seems like there is no time for me to rest. I gotta move out of house before i can go back home! yea, I'm already waiting for this day for much too long. Looking forward to see everyone i miss. I'll be arriving on 3rd July. So, see ya! :D
p/s: I felt very strange that one day when i opened my mailbox, one of my blog entry suddenly becomes the host of a forum for discussion about my country. Very interesting. Maybe one day i'll answer them.
Sunday, May 06, 2007
My Webshot album is being featured!
Last Thursday, when i woke up, i checked mail. I found that many emails informing me about the guestbook entries for my 'Best 50 for the first year in UK/Europe' Webshot album. It's been awhile i didn't log in there (since my last upload of my new Best 60 album). When i logged in, to my great surprise, my whole album is being view 35000 times in less than a week!!! (current view tally is 40594) I found comments everywhere in my album, they like it especially the 'Morning at Hyde Park' photo. I received many warm and hearty congratulations for that photo being featured in the webshot Member's choice photo in 'Travel' section. I feel so high on top of the world, and very very excited that my photos are appreciated from the people worldwide. (when I told that to my gf, she felt proud of me too.) Since that, i have added 10 fans who tagged me as their favourite photographer.
That time i was still using my previous camera. I'm still not satisfy with my current semi-pro camera. Now it seems like i have good excuse to request for a better pro camera. :P
If you haven't visited my webshot photo album site, here's the link:
http://community.webshots.com/user/cheehan1985
I will continue to contribute my effort, for the art of photography and the pleasure of the viewers. This is the only art i can do the best. ^_^
That time i was still using my previous camera. I'm still not satisfy with my current semi-pro camera. Now it seems like i have good excuse to request for a better pro camera. :P
If you haven't visited my webshot photo album site, here's the link:
http://community.webshots.com/user/cheehan1985
I will continue to contribute my effort, for the art of photography and the pleasure of the viewers. This is the only art i can do the best. ^_^
Looks like a deserted place? Update bout my recent life
yea, it's been a month since my last post. My final exam is officially over. Now it's time for my final year project which carries 15% of my degree. I gotta work hard, though. I'm not sure whether i have regretted my decision to put that one of the six choices of project, and got that my least favourite choice. However, that only means that the challenge is tougher. My current project supervisor is a strict guy. I heard many friends and coursemates giving him negative feedback. They said, usually he tends not to give good marks to students. If this is so, i'm in a disadvantageous situation, coz he's the one who does the first marking before passing it to the external examiners during my viva (oral) exam. Up 'til now he's still patient , kind and nice to me, but i'm already feeling very much pressure on me. My other friends, majority of them are working under supervisor's postgraduate students, but i'm directly under the guiding of my supervisor. This could be considered lucky or unlucky. Actually this should be the right way to access every student's performance and ability. I have no choice but to face the challenge and do the best, and be careful enough not to make serious mistakes (to avoid being scold :P)
Exam and further studies
My final exam was not too bad. There's very high chance that i can pass the minimum requirement to enter my master degree in Imperial College next (academic) year. Let's pray for me too, when the time comes (result comes out at the end of June). However, I failed to make it to Oxford University, haih... rejected even before i show my exam result to them. Nevermind. I'm quite happy to stay in Imperial College.
Moving House
The next thing is the mission of house-hunting. I'm confirmed moving out next year, to a new house. Since that possibly could be my last year of studying (unless i go higher to PhD), i might as well change the environment and aim for better living standard. After two years of staying 'underground' (basement flat), it's time for change. Some good and bad about this house. Furthermore, it's not up to us to decide whether we could stay. The house condition is much worse since the first day of moving in. Especially for this year. I have 'no eyes to see'. I already do my best, but when cleanliness and thriftiness are not other housemates' top priority or concern, i would just give in. Not that i did not do the role of controlling and correcting the situation, just that a habit is still a habit to some people. Now i wonder if we can return the house to the landlord as what it is like when we move in.
I will push harder prior to the date of moving out.
Once my senior had given me this advice, when he first moved out of this house. He said, it's not that this house is not good, but that was his housemate's decision. He said: 'It doesn't matter with which house you are staying... Good house is not hard to find, more important is who are you living with. Good housemates are not easy to meet and also each one is not easily replaced.' That sounds right to me now, i realize that some role of a member in a house are not just easily replaceable. Now i miss Andy. hehe
At current stage we have settled the group of housemates for next year. The only thing left is the house, since we're quite happy with each other (future housemates) now.
Ok. Update until here. I do have much more things to say, including some interesting stories...hehe. That's one 'scary story' happened at the 'backyard' of my house last time during my exam days. Want to know? tell you next time :P I have some thoughts to share about the current affairs of my country too, but once i start writing it, i'm afraid i just can't stop. I'll save it for next time.
Don't think i have nothing to do, this 6-weeks project is crucial to me. I'll keep myself busy with that. In the meantime i will update my blog once in a while.
Exam and further studies
My final exam was not too bad. There's very high chance that i can pass the minimum requirement to enter my master degree in Imperial College next (academic) year. Let's pray for me too, when the time comes (result comes out at the end of June). However, I failed to make it to Oxford University, haih... rejected even before i show my exam result to them. Nevermind. I'm quite happy to stay in Imperial College.
Moving House
The next thing is the mission of house-hunting. I'm confirmed moving out next year, to a new house. Since that possibly could be my last year of studying (unless i go higher to PhD), i might as well change the environment and aim for better living standard. After two years of staying 'underground' (basement flat), it's time for change. Some good and bad about this house. Furthermore, it's not up to us to decide whether we could stay. The house condition is much worse since the first day of moving in. Especially for this year. I have 'no eyes to see'. I already do my best, but when cleanliness and thriftiness are not other housemates' top priority or concern, i would just give in. Not that i did not do the role of controlling and correcting the situation, just that a habit is still a habit to some people. Now i wonder if we can return the house to the landlord as what it is like when we move in.
I will push harder prior to the date of moving out.
Once my senior had given me this advice, when he first moved out of this house. He said, it's not that this house is not good, but that was his housemate's decision. He said: 'It doesn't matter with which house you are staying... Good house is not hard to find, more important is who are you living with. Good housemates are not easy to meet and also each one is not easily replaced.' That sounds right to me now, i realize that some role of a member in a house are not just easily replaceable. Now i miss Andy. hehe
At current stage we have settled the group of housemates for next year. The only thing left is the house, since we're quite happy with each other (future housemates) now.
Ok. Update until here. I do have much more things to say, including some interesting stories...hehe. That's one 'scary story' happened at the 'backyard' of my house last time during my exam days. Want to know? tell you next time :P I have some thoughts to share about the current affairs of my country too, but once i start writing it, i'm afraid i just can't stop. I'll save it for next time.
Don't think i have nothing to do, this 6-weeks project is crucial to me. I'll keep myself busy with that. In the meantime i will update my blog once in a while.
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