Saturday, September 03, 2016

第三封信:100天誕辰

禹丞:

孩子,你又長大了!恭喜你跨入第100天。比起2個月前的你,現在你已是個大baby了,個子和體重都有明顯增加。最讓粑粑麻麻欣慰的是,你真的很乖很好照顧。麻麻說,你看到外面天黑和聽到穆斯林祈禱聲(waktu Maghrib)時,就會鬧著要抹身喝奶,然後大概在晚上9點前就入寢。通常就這樣一睡就睡到凌晨4、 5 點早上,粑粑麻麻不用太勞累而有充足素質睡眠。你有這樣的睡覺紀律,真是謝天謝地啊!

現在的你是個愛笑的baby。你不怕陌生人,每每會專注‘定定地’看著人的表情動作和聽人講話。你甚至會偶爾發出一些聲音回應他人,好厲害哦!粑粑麻麻帶你出外時,你常常引起安哥安娣的注意,他們都稱讚你好可愛喔!還有一些哥哥姐姐要逗你玩!

昨天你第一次出國,來到了麻麻的kampung(雖然檳城移民廳的人說新加坡哪裡有kampung)。之前為了你出國,粑粑麻麻得費勁弄你一本護照,怎知恰好卡在政府發出誤導性消息說護照短缺,結果導致一大堆人擠爆移民廳更新護照。粑粑麻麻為了要幫你弄張好看的護照大頭照,找了攝影店的攝影師,最後卻只能把你弄成那樣子(遲點才讓大家看看你的首張正式大頭照),我們倆啼笑皆非。

很快地,你得適應新環境了。你出生以來居住的檳島公寓雖然山林景色依舊壯麗,我們一家人得在月底搬走離開,回到你老粑的家鄉梳邦-巴生谷。粑粑申請遷移至吉隆坡的辦公室繼續做個政策研究員,已獲得批准了。不止是你,麻麻也得適應新家、新城市和新環境。是的,檳城住家真的太方便了,便利店、餐廳、髮廊、工具店、診所等全部通通都在樓下。以後在梳邦,如果粑粑不能載麻麻出去,她就得學會開車,或招車來去購買用品和食物。但對我們一家來說,以後我們更靠近你阿嫲家,麻麻要返回職場將有更多選擇。粑粑想要繼續研究國家政策,巴生谷一帶會是日後事業發展的重心地。我們相信,你會歡樂無憂地在粑粑麻麻呵護教導下在那裡健康成長。

檳城已是粑粑在國內的第二個家,我們有機會一定會回去看看。粑粑到時應該也會想念在檳城居住的生活時光。粑粑在檳城的兩年半里,盡心盡力為檳城貢獻和付出,以確保它能有個平衡可持續性的發展。檳城擁有兩個最讓人心迷和珍惜的部分,即文化遺產和大自然環境,粑粑有用心出力去維護。所以,粑粑問心無愧面對檳州納稅人,因為他們是我的老闆。回到來梳邦,粑粑仍會繼續關注檳城,只因我的朋友‘兄弟姐妹們’都還在那里。粑粑在檳城時認識了很多很棒的良師益友,豐富了人生。或許以後,當你有機會回到來這裡生活的時候,希望你仍能欣賞到檳城最美的一面,認識這裡熱情友善正直的人。

寫到這裡,粑粑要去選你的照片了哦!希望你明天你在百日party見到許多麻麻的親朋戚友時,能從容微笑面對和招待,辛苦你了。你餓了,粑粑會餵奶(瓶)給你!

粑粑
寫於2016年9月2日

Saturday, August 27, 2016

Housework

To me, doing housework is not just work or duty. It is responsibility, not something money can buy.
I might not clean, wash or mop as clean as a professional cleaner; I might not cook as good as a chef out there, but I am proud to do that for my family.
Unlike professional cleaner or maid who does the job for money, when I do housework I make sure I put my heart in, because I care and I value the works contributing directly to my family. I want the house feel hygiene, tidy, clean and comfortable , i want the food to be yummy yet healthy, etc.
At home, XH and I almost practise 'meritocracy' and preference... there is no fixed women's or men's jobs at home, we just figure out what is best each can do. So, the 'division of labour' goes according to ability and preference but not along the gender line. No paksa, only rela.
I cook, because XH thinks that I cook better (and I also enjoy cooking). She sews, because I am really chor lor and lunzhun, can't handle tiny things (and she thinks she is better too). We clean using different methods at different time. We wash dishes depending on who is more free at that particular time.
House belongs to the members who live in. Everyone has responsibility to take care of one's home. I was 'trained' to do housework when I was young. I learned to be independent when I was abroad. Do housework is just essential life skills, both genders should learn, no excuse. For sure, I would train my kids to do housework when they grow up.
I also find that, when doing housework yourself, you train yourself to be humble. You would appreciate but not look down on cleaners who also sweat for doing their job for the communities.
The way I see is, housework should not be difficult things to do, both men and women should be capable of doing the same set of housework. So, gender equality should start from home. Do not let anyone tell you that you should (or should not) do certain housework just because you are woman (or man). Tradition can be changed. Respect housework duties and responsibilities.

Wednesday, July 20, 2016

給孩子的第二封信(7月7日)

禹丞:

這是老爸寫給你的第二封信。對不起,老爸還真的很忙,你的正滿月那天來不及抽空寫給你。

明天是你的滿月派對,到時將會有很多親戚朋友來看你!(還有,明天也是你老媽的生日哦)粑粑今天順利且小心開車把你和麻麻載回梳邦,你粑粑的老家啦!你一路上都睡得好,很乖。

你現在不是半個,而已是整個檳城人了...因為你的MyKid身份證上顯示的出生州屬號碼是07,呵呵。告訴你一個秘密...爸爸媽媽堅決把你的宗教信仰那欄放空為Tiada Agama (無宗教) ,因為我們相信你有自由和權利在未來選擇(或不選擇)自己的宗教。宗教是你個人的信仰,必須日後在深思熟慮和深度認知後自己決定,我們不插手。爸爸媽媽也沒給你掛任何前頭(prefix)的英文名,需不需要日後由你自己決定....你可以叫David或Jeremy,Donald或Bernie,我們不太在乎,因為在家里我們還是會叫你禹丞(或有時交替叫你ah Boy)。

謝謝你這個月來的耐心和乖巧,讓我這位新手粑粑戰戰兢兢、小心翼翼地照顧你。向大家報告,我已會為你換尿片、洗澡換衣、喂瓶裝母奶、唱歌哄你入睡等技能,我還在努力學習做你的好粑粑,ok?

我還得感謝你母親對你的細心呵護。我很佩服她,因為她堅持差不多每兩三個小時就喂你母奶一次。她已超過一個月沒有持續睡超過6小時了。你以後一定要感謝(感恩)媽媽,知道嗎?因為她的堅持,你才健康快樂成長。看你現在精靈可愛的模樣且短小精悍的身軀,感覺到你充滿頑強生命力和巨大潛能,我們倆的付出一切都很值得。慶幸的是,你真的很乖巧,很能適應環境。

當初你得黃疸病時,我們在家把你放在藍光燈下陸陸續續地照了7天,雖然我們有點心疼,但你也沒太大的抗拒。帶你去Klinik Kesihatan打針驗血了不下10次,幾次後你也不怎麼大哭了。檳城大醫院的醫生說你被抽血樣本時,竟然出乎我們預料地沒哭。

見過你的親朋戚友都說喜歡你,對你讚賞有加。不管現在人家說你像誰或不像誰都好,你是我們驕傲的兒子。你真有性格,表情多多逗笑逗趣,有你是我們的幸福和歡樂。我們會好好照顧和養育你,讓你繼續成為我們的驕傲。

粑粑在這裡給大家分享一些你首個月的口愛照,以作滿月紀念,希望你不介意。禹丞,滿月快樂,粑粑愛你!

志翰

Thursday, May 26, 2016

給我孩子禹丞的信

孩子,
歡迎來到這世界。我是你爸,第一次寫信給你。和你媽一樣,我們興奮同時又緊張(不過當然你媽要承受更大的痛苦把你帶來這世界)。你媽很厲害,四個小時內就把你帶來人間;接生你的黃國光醫生也是頂呱呱。
你的名字是林禹丞。我們希望你能向這位華夏歷史傳奇人物大禹看齊。你不一定需要治水,但要利用你的智慧、知識和領導協助解決世間即複雜又實在的問題。你的出生,有人說會增添地球的負擔。但你要記住,你來到這世上的意義不只為了自己和家人而活。我們期待你成為對社會有用的人--將來受他人的尊重,並不是你的榮華富貴或社會地位,而是你的人格修養和實際貢獻。
你的“丞”,除了有輔助的意思,也包含了古文中“拯救”的意思。我的同事導師黃裕端博士告訴我,這個字源自甲骨文,畫有兩隻手把人從陷阱之中救上來。我們也希望你能發揮正義感善於助人、與人守望相助一起建設國家社會。要知道,這世界絕不會圍繞你為中心而轉。你要待人以誠愛人以真,做個有禮貌值得信任的人。我們會盡力給你立下好榜樣。
我們希望能給你一個幸福的小家庭,并承諾你一個快樂健康成長的童年。除了撫養你長大,我們同時也樂意作你的導師,協助你吸取各方面的知識和學習各項生活技能。我們堅持,學習是為了充實生活、滿足自己的求知慾,并不為了考試。所以,我們對你的學業沒有特別的要求。我們承諾不會給你學習壓力,更不會要求你的考試分數如何。你必須要有上進心,為自己的未來升學和前途而努力,我們會為你分析情況但不會強迫你。倘若你有特別的天份和興趣,我們絕對支持你選擇的路。只要你做自己,我們持開放態度,不管你是什麼戀都好。(只是,如果以後有伴,記得帶回家哦,媽媽尤其關心 xD)
作為爸爸的,我會把良好的閱讀習慣傳承給你,所以我承諾多講故事給你,與你一起閱讀繪本書籍,並從書香中發掘見識這個世界。我們也會帶你多接觸大自然,讓你好好感受我們的山林、河川、海洋和公園并遊樂其中,希望你長大後也同樣像我們一樣熱愛和維護大自然的美。
我們將來會有好多好多的話要對你說。希望你在我們的照顧之下,慢慢但好好地健康快樂成長。最重要的是,我們愛你。

你的老爸,

志翰
2016年5月26日

P/s: 乖,聽媽媽的話,ok?



Saturday, December 12, 2015

讀了慧思的《專訪陳亞才》後記

慧思用樸實的文筆敘述亞才的故事,卻給我帶來深深的感動,尤其是亞才對吉隆坡古跡保護的堅持。亞才的精神,讓我相信堅持是一種美,也是一種意義。

或許,我對吉隆坡的認識還不夠深,所以無法充分欣賞它。過去(甚至是現在)在我腦海印象里,它是一個過度發展、沒太規劃好、高樓聳立的鋼骨森林大都市。每當外州人或外國人問起我從哪裡來,我都刻意不說我來自吉隆坡(雖然客觀事實我是對的)。我出生於巴生,在沙亞南和梳邦長大,說我是雪蘭莪人應該沒人質疑。吉隆坡甚至曾是雪州的一部分。但巴生河流域的發展與吉隆坡的向外發展乃息息相關,梳邦市也是吉隆坡外圍的一個衛星市。我可能很難抽離吉隆坡對我居住地方的影響。

吉隆坡近20年來的發展迅速,發展速度快到很多地方的面貌都已無法從兒時記憶裡辨認出來。有人說檳城馬六甲的古跡保護工作難做,讀了亞才的專訪才體會到要在發展蓬勃的吉隆坡大都市大談保護古跡幾乎是螳臂擋車(或用英文來說,a lost cause)。畢竟發展主義的思維遍佈大眾,是主流價值觀。要逆流而上扭轉這種價值觀和提倡永續性發展,實屬吃力不討好。這讓我更加敬佩這位社運前輩,同時也與他一起努力改變這國家社會。雖然俗氣一點,我還是要說,不是因為看到希望而堅持,而是堅持為了看到希望。

說起來,我認識他時,我還是初中生辯論員。他幾乎出現在大大小小的州級辯論比賽擔任評判。我印象深刻的是他專業分析和淵博知識。他讓我相信,一位學者要學以致用貢獻社會,就不能只顧關在象牙塔或冷氣房內,必須身體力行參與能影響、改變和動員大眾的社會運動。惟有這樣,學識和運動才能發揮最佳作用和效果,變得更有意義。

Sunday, November 29, 2015

On land reclamation

Penang is not Singapore. The limitation of land size of the Penang Island is true, but that is a weak argument. The main factor for the land reclamation on the part of the contentious area on the Island is driven by greed of the housing developers.Penang Island does have more land on the other side of the island (Balik Pulau) but the development in that area in recent years cannot pick up because of weak demand. So, naturally developers do not consider investing in that part of land.

However, The North-East coast Islander centric view of what should constitute as a proud Penangite does more harm than good, fuel the demand for housing units in this already densed and congested area.

It is not the issue that the mainland Seberang Perai does not have land for development, why Penangites should allow the controversial land reclaimation projects to go on and alter the environment and the biodiversity altogether? If you said the government should think about the long term benefits, sure the government must also think about the long term cost.

Singapore did it out of their necessity, so the question is, does Penang really come to that point already while Penang still has the Mainland Seberang Perai and west coast in the island? Why so proud about the Singapore model, while Penang still has something that Singapore has long lost: the biodiversity and the prestine nature in the hills and seas (despite declining rapidly these days because of so-called 'development')? Singapore is willing to compromise their heritage buildings for development, does Penang willing to do so on George Town too?

Some Penangites tend to forget to treasure what they already possess. It is not that I do not want Development, but the development must be balanced and sustainable. That is why the state government's role is crucial in the urban planning. Do you see people protesting too much over the development in Batu Kawan? No, I think that is a good move for the state government to shift the focus on the mainland and create more job opportunities. What some Penangites need to do is, to change the 'North-east coast Islander superiority' complex.

Wednesday, September 09, 2015

Dear Mr Jeyaratnam...

This personal open letter to Mr JBJ from Dr Chee Soon Juan made me tearly when first read it. Then again it made me, when I was watching the rally speech video Dr Chee dedicated especially to his late comrade JBJ.
Both Mr JBJ and Dr Chee are patriots. They are real democracy and freedom fighters. Dr Chee reminds me very much of our own Anwar Ibrahim, whom he is already 200+ days languished in jail as a result of a political motivated sentence. Anwar has been fighting too since 1997, and still keep fighting from jail at the age of 68.
Dr Chee's grit, determination and persistent advocating for democracy, makes him a truly outstanding person in Singapore. He could have, like Anwar was once offered, a chance to live in exile and live a good life at overseas with his family.
He chose not to, but came back to Singapore and keep fighting for the people with the values he believes which are good for the society. Nowadays virtues , beliefs and principles hardly worth anything in a capitalist society which always seek to maximise profits and trade benefits. Therefore, these qualities are hard to come by. You will only see how determined one holds on to his/her beliefs and principles when the person is challenged and tested over time.
Dr Chee never gives up, despite numerous arrests made to his name. In the past 25 years, he was seen in and out of police stations, courts and jail. MSM tarnished his reputation and image , the authorities intended to destroy him personally. Even at his bleakest moment when he was sued and found guilty for the defamation suit until declared a bankrupcy, that did not take away his struggle and his will to speak up. He is a consistent proponent for democracy. He challenged unjust laws, and compassionately care for his people and the society.
(*Please watch the once-banned-documentary film about his struggles, entitled 'Singapore Rebel'. It was filmed a decade ago by Martyn See. Those quotes he said before, are still used by him until today. He is that consistent. That is why how sad I watched Mr. JBJ , together with many other previous opposition figures had to suffer from the ill and harsh-treatment by the state, and especially by the one 'great' man.)
People probably do not appreciate the values and the meaning of democracy and liberty until they get to fully enjoy that. After that, trust me, they will never want to go back to the one-party authoritarian state.
You can go ask any Indonesian, South Korean , Taiwanese and East German, no matter how prosperous were once their good old time under some of their past 'great' leaders, do they want to go back to the old system and give up their freedom and democratic spaces? I can assure, you will find a emphatic resounding 'No' as the reply.
Even the political parties in these countries inherited from the past, already transformed themselves into a democratic one. Still the pro-Suharto candidate for the last presidential election in Indonesia, Probowo Subianto, did not win. Jokowi is the real popular choice, a symbol of new politics.
I have reasons to believe that Dr Chee will support any democratic social movements in the world, including the Bersih movement. He will not paint Bersih 4.0 the same brush like Mr Lee Hsien Loong did this afternoon (Mr. Lee likened Bersih as a racial "non-Malay" rally to the upcoming 916 red-shirt rally). I also hope that Dr. Chee could speak up for Anwar and ask for his immediate release after the GE.
I wish him and his party all the best, and I hope to see them in the parliament of Singapore.

Monday, September 07, 2015

聽好,我們不是沉默的大多數

一而再,再而三,現在四。不放棄才有希望。
我覺得自己已是個Bersih老鳥。過去我在海外的三個不同的地點和國家見證了Bersih運動的成長。沒錯,我曾協助參與策劃倫敦Bersih 1.0 以及 柏林Bersih 3.0的集會遊行, 同時也以遊客身份參與了巴黎Bersih 2.0。今時不同往日,八年就這樣飛逝,現在來到了Bersih 4.0。我也已從海外歸來,即將首次踩在自己的國土上,與十萬人以上一起在首都吉隆坡遊行要求制度改革(和納吉首相下台)
幾天前,杜乾煥博士向我求助關於Powerpoint上的技術問題。眼尖的我發現一張歷史性照片出現在他的其中一張幻燈片里…那就是倫敦Bersih 1.0集會的大合照。我興奮地向他指出我在那相片的位置。他似乎沒察覺到我的存在。轉眼間就8年了。如果你問我,凈選盟運動對這國家社會到底有沒有帶來什麼改變,我會回答:有,顯著且深遠的改變。
你們或許不諳當年的政治氣候如何,即使我在自由國度如英國依然可感受到強權政府賦予人民的緊箍咒。當時我在Malaysian Hall和我大學《大馬之夜》會場外派發Bersih宣傳單的情景還歷歷在目。不多人敢接觸我們,甭說接受黃色傳單。有些人看到我們好像看到鬼這樣,盡量避開躲遠遠。一些還反復地念著咒語般:’no politics, no politics…’, 期望這樣就可以‘避邪’打發我們。還有一些領了傳單,掃描了沒幾秒鐘內容後,就直接把它送往最靠近的垃圾桶。《大馬之夜》的負責人甚至親自下來警告我們,說如果我們不走他會叫保安。我告訴他,去吧,這裡大學是公共的地方,我有權和自由派發傳單。再況且我們沒有阻止人出席他的節目。
很明顯的在那個時候,當我公開談起政治,我可以感受到海外大馬同胞的恐懼和冷感。那些還留在國內的更不用說了。當時Global Bersih還沒成立與註冊,環球沒有多少城市參與集會。所以,當年倫敦那場的出席率不超過30人,對我們來說已經非常鼓舞人心,難能可貴了。這說明仍有人在強權的淫威籠罩下,依然主動關心國內時事局勢,膽敢站出來表達立場。
如果說Bersih 1.0 沒有突破,那麼我們就無法見證2008年十二屆全國大選後的政治海嘯。眾多的民間運動鼓舞了公眾,同時加強了他們對民主自由和公正的信念。公民力量一直都是我國社會進步的基礎。在野黨陣線在大選中大有斬獲,因為他們趕上了國民醒覺和改革浪潮。如果不是Bersih,我們大概也沒機會看到大批能幹、專業和有理想人士加入和壯大在野黨陣線。他們確實相信他們能對國家有所貢獻,有機會改變這個國家。那五個在大選中政權替換的州屬,已成為了這些有志之士的培訓之地,作為未來執政中央的準備。
通過Bersih 2.0,我們見證了一個新的馬來西亞誕生。人民已跨越了族群宗教年齡性別的界限,不分彼此地聚集在吉隆坡和世界各地,向政府施壓喊話要求改革。愛取代了恐懼和偏見。‘人民主權’就這麼定調,人民不再害怕當權者。無數次的恐嚇對人民已失去了作用;警方使用的暴力譬如催淚彈、水炮車,和棒棍人身攻擊等,都無法擊敗人民要求改變的意志。那些過去的鎮壓動作,已不管用了。我們人民之間的弟兄姐妹情結已建成一道堅固的牆,那時我們也共同找到了一個新的國家。
Bersih 3.0 更推到了一個新高,出席率是迄今公民運動遊行之最,也是人民強大力量的展現。這賦予人民希望,政府不改就決心要換政府。認為執政者已失去信用不得民心的大有人在。參與民運的人,都想要Ubah,那是不爭的事實。
沒錯,當權者選擇不聆聽民聲,虛情假意兜兜轉轉,最後依然我行我素不改革開放。他們說要這個國家需要轉型最後只有錢在轉來轉去,帶到了十三屆大選孤注一擲大玩一場。結果他們失去了全國總票數,再丟失了多幾個國會和州議席,但依然老神在在地掌握中央政權,只因贏得了不相等的席位。這正是不公平的選區劃分和不干淨的選民冊的結果。現在我們又得知賄選也是一大因素。這個政權早已失去了正當性。51%投選反對陣線(民聯)的人民極度失望。隨後大家進入了一段憂鬱低潮期。現在隨著勁爆的巨額貪污醜聞層出不窮,政治昏暗亂象和經濟低迷失控,我們又振作起來了。
目前我們非常清楚,首相兼巫統主席納吉挪用了大約26億令吉注入自己的銀行戶頭,並用這些錢來資助自黨的政治生存之戰。那筆賄選錢或足以改變了大選成績。那是一個被偷走的大選成績。更讓人民生氣的是,直到如今,淨選盟之前提出的8條訴求,竟沒一條已成功改革。政府機關偏頗失靈到那種地步,我們得自己國家自己救。這就是為什麼這次我們非得上街不可,並加上我們的新訴求,就五條:1)乾淨選舉,2)廉潔政府,3)拯救經濟,4)異議權利,和5)加強國會議會民主。我們要這個集會遊行再創新高以示民意。這把強大的聲音,我們要直接傳達給納吉,且讓全世界知道納吉的虛偽貪婪和無能。
上一場Bersih 3.0,我還在德國。雖然我所居住的城市距離300公里以外,我自薦負責統籌柏林的那場集會。那時出席者大約30位左右,包括幾位來自他國的友善支持。現在已回國的我,看到德國再次出現在Global Bersih 4.0版圖上有三座城市響應支持。各別代表德國北中南部,它們是:漢堡、科隆和慕尼黑。讓我覺得他們很厲害的地方是他們竟然已印上了他們城市名字的戰衣。他們甚至已有人安排交通從斯圖加特載人到科隆。
這次回到自己的國土,我更沒理由不上街。上街是我的公民義務。就如香港著名學運領袖黃之鋒所說的:“從來不是看到希望才堅持,而是堅持才會看到希望”。的確,事到如今我們沒有絕望的權利。無論能否看到立即的政改效果,我們都必須站出來,用軀體表達我們的立場。我們的出席人數,是執政者唯一能看得懂的語言和數字。只有我們都傾巢而出走上街頭,政府才不能老是說‘沉默的大多數’依然支持他們。這就是為何我堅持,我們一定不可保持沉默!我們就是多數,我們的聲音就是主流:我們要自己動手把垃圾掃除,還我乾淨的國家!

We are not the ‘silent majority’


I consider myself a veteran Bersih kaki. It is not that I had involved myself organising all those events in the past. Not too bad, I helped organise the Bersih London 1.0 and Bersih Berlin 3.0, participated the Bersih Paris 2.0. This time it is surely different. 8 years have passed, now comes Bersih 4.0, and I will be there joining the Bersih rally for the first time in my homeland, stepping on my home soil demanding for CHANGE together with hundred thousands of people.
Few days ago, Dr Toh asked me for technical help on the powerpoint, and I saw a historic picture he put in his slides… the Bersih London 1.0 rally. I was so excited and pointed to him that I was in the picture. Dr Toh also did not realise. 8 years ago, if you ask me if Bersih movement has changed the nation, I would say, very significantly.
You probably do not know what was the political climate back then. Even I was in the free land such as United Kingdom, I can still feel the spells casted by our mighty government to our own citizens abroad. I remember so vividly distributing flyers in front of the Malaysian Hall and at the entrance of Malaysian Night event venue in Imperial College London. Back in those days, very few people would dare to accept the yellow flyers from us. They tried to avoid us at best that they could when we approached them, like they saw ghost or any awful thing you could imagine. Some of them kept murmuring the spell: 'No politics, no politics...' hoping that would repel (the ghost of) us. Some took the flyers, scanned through just few seconds then chucked it away in the nearest bin. Even the organiser of that Malaysian Night event came down and threatened me that he would call the security guys, but I told him to go ahead because I have the freedom and right of giving flyers in public places such as (my own) university.
Clearly, I could see the fear and apathy when fellow Malaysians at overseas talking about politics, let alone those still living in the homeland. Back in those days Global Bersih was not yet established, not many cities around the world involved in the rally. The turnout for the rally in London was moderate (not more than 30) but I felt encouraged. This is because it shows that there were still people who care and bold enough to make a stand and express their thoughts.
If Bersih 1.0 was not a breakthrough, then we would not see the political tsunami in 2008 after GE12. The empowerment of the public by the civil movements is the foundation for better Malaysia. It always is. Opposition political parties were doing well because they rode on the waves of enlightenment and uprising sparked by many social movements back then. If not for Bersih, we would not see more capable, professional and/or idealistic members of society joined the opposition political parties, because they see fit to contribute, aspire to get their hands dirty to make a change to our nation. The 5 states which fell to the opposition coalition (now the defunct Pakatan Rakyat), were the training ground for these new politicians into governance.
In Bersih 2.0, we witnessed a new nation born, where people crossed the boundaries of ethnicity, religion, age and gender, gathered for the rally in KL and around the world. Love replaced fear and discrimination. 'Ketuanan Rakyat' was cemented; we people fear no government and authorities. the countless threats hurled by the authorities against us Malaysians gone in vain; physical assaults by the police such as tear gas, water cannon, batton beating and arrests, did not break people's determination for change; the lines that used to divide and segregate us according to skin colours and creeds, worked no more. The brother-sisterhood bonding was formed, that was when a new nation was found.
Bersih 3.0 was pushed to a new height, when the number of turnout was historic. That was the biggest street rally ever, the people's power was once again showcased. This cultivated the hope that people could see a change of government, because they think the current administration was losing the credibility to govern, simultaneously also losing the people's confidence and support. Many ordinary people from all walks of life took part in various civil movements and activities, bidding the hope to 'Ubah'.
It is true that the authorities did not seem to heed the calls for 8 demands and obviously turned their deaf ear to the collective voices of Bersih supporters and reform-minded citizens. They carried on their pretence and hollow promises to 'tranform' the country, into the GE13. Despite effort in massive vote-buying, they lost the share of popular votes, and conceded more parliament seats. They hung on to the power by sheer majority number of seats they won. Of course, the 51% rakyat were deeply disappointed and that depressed the civil movements for quite some period of time. But now no more.
This is clear by now that the UMNO president and Prime Minister Najib Razak embezzled fund amounting to RM2.6billion to his own personal account, and used that to fund the political survival campaign for his party. Thanks to WSJ, Sarawak Report and other whistleblowers, now we know what they did. That amount of the illegal funding perhaps had made all the difference to the final outcome in the last GE. That was the 'stolen General Election'.
All to the frustration of our people, none of the 8 demands were met. That is why we have to march once more, and take our new demands to the streets. Not many we demand this time, just five. We want: 1) clean elections, 2) clean governance, 3) saving the economy, 4) right to dissent, and 5) strengthening the parliamentary democracy system. We want this rally to be massive so that stronger message can be delivered directly to Mr Najib. We want real institutional reforms and not your wishy-washy promises on reform! …and can you please step down, because we know that you are one of the biggest obstacles for reform. Your Transformasi is not only useless, but makes the country worse!
The last Bersih 3.0 in Berlin, I helped organise the rally. It was attended by some 30-40 participants, including several members from international support for the Bersih cause.
Now I am no more in Germany, still impressed by the fact that there are 3 german cities appeared on the Global Bersih 4.0 map. What is more awesome, is that they have even printed their own rally t-shirts, and arranged transportation for people coming from Stuttgart to Köln.
Now back to my homeland, there is no reason that I do not make myself present on the KL streets this Saturday. This has become my civil duty and obligation. Just like what Joshua Wong, the prominent student activist from Hong Kong, famously said: “It is not because of the hope we persist, but we persist to find hope”. Please do not despair. The time is now, we have to make a stand. Only when we all go out to streets this weekend, the government can no longer say ‘the silent majority’ are still with them. That is exactly why we should NOT stay silent, and be counted. We people are the majority, and we want this country Bersih!

Friday, September 04, 2015

抗議丘光耀的鴨霸文化


我宣佈與我的同道友人同一陣線,與丘光耀切割。有些事情真的是可忍孰不可忍。首先,我向《火箭報》請辭,退寫專欄。(我自行公佈我書寫的內容)

渼沄社長,
你好!我想在此正式向您請辭。很抱歉,我決定不再寫《火箭報》的專欄了。
不知您有沒注意到,近期發生了很多是非。我退寫專欄,是為了抗議丘光耀先生近期的過分言行。他人身攻擊和污衊我的同道朋友。他們當中很多是中文或多語評論人。我與他們同在。
我求去的決定與您和行動黨無關。我感謝您這些日子以來給予我的支持和特別是您的耐心。
我也想順便說,丘光耀做了很壞的示範。他不純粹理性地批評別人,而是以各種難聽的稱號掛在他人身上。(想象一下連您的友黨人民公正黨也被他稱為公廁黨,您還能怎樣與友黨合作?)
斗臭污衊文化不應該是行動黨的文化。他如此繼續狂傲自大、污衊攻擊友黨和同道人下去,將使他人對行動黨留下不良印象然後敬而遠之。這不利於進步的反對運動。我也擔心他龐大的粉絲團會也隨著共舞,受到不良影響。在此,我希望您能向行動黨高層反映,以正視聽。
希望我的決定不會給您帶來很大麻煩,也希望您能順利地找到人替補我留下的空缺。謝謝!
志翰

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行動黨的人才濟濟,我相信《火箭報》很快就能找到合適的作者,更加符合他們要的黨報路線。我本身不厲害寫,所以不希望是他們黨報節節上升銷售量的阻力,更不要背負著罪名(臭名)。

我的朋友們,南發、宏祥、迪澎和進發等皆被光耀一而再再而三地以惡名謾罵嘲諷。那些嘲諷攻擊他人身份和性別取向的言論,不是評論或批評,而是人身攻擊。那不是健康理性的討論文化,我實在難以苟同。身為博士的他應引以為恥,奉勸他別再教壞細路仔和粉絲。

還有,這樣品行的人,我已unfriend了(說明他不是我的朋友)。但我會follow他,會繼續觀察他的言行作風。