Tuesday, May 31, 2011

爭取

當然,不是所有的事盡力爭取后一定得到,也許真的有可能一些最後是沒有辦法的...
但是不要因為只看見一棵樹攔住你前方的路就放棄了前進,而看不到整座森林有其他許許多多的路啊!
一些事,還是有可能的,只要你肯相信,并身體力行去做。
不爭取的事,我可以肯定的是,最後沒有你的份!

~與一位朋友共勉之~

世界因不同而美麗

我們應該互相尊重互相欣賞不是好咯...何必‘看衰’或貶低其他人因為別人跟你不一樣?

p/s: 給那個在西方人面前感到自卑,卻可以肆無忌憚地看衰/歧視黑人和其他有色人的一位朋友。 *搖搖頭*

Tak kenal maka tak sayang

Tak kenal maka tak sayang.... Jadi, kalau sudah kenal, mesti kita sayang?
aduhai, sakit kepala ni, kerana sudah kenal ramai orang!!!

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

我樂觀,我積極,我永遠要給機會一個機會

  • 我樂觀,是因為要把悲觀消極的心態埋起來,別讓它影響或蒙蔽我繼續往更多美好方向前去的清晰思路。

         我積極,是因為不想要因消極而缺乏行動或沒有行動或用逃避來應對眼前的問題,更不想要承擔因消極應對,沒有盡力后得到的壞結果,然後怪罪自己(然後又再惡性循環)。

  • 我永遠要給機會一個機會。因為這樣,當機會來敲你的門時,你就不會錯過了。
  • 人生難免有不如意的事,但記住,這不會是常態。所以要看開點。

I phone is no better than 'eye'-phone

my self created original I phone joke... targeted particularly at person who owns an I phone and acts very lansi/boast about that.

Imagine if that someone asked you whether you have got an I Phone, you just answer, 'Yes, I do have.' 'You wanna see? come, come... come looking into my eyes'. After awhile of eye-contact, then you say: 'i am calling you now.. i am calling you now, please pick it up! pick it up!!!'

That guy/gal must look rather confused now, then you continue saying: 'i am also using 'Eye'-phone, why don't you just pick it up just now?'

科技不能取代感情表達

無論是任何智能產品,都無法取代日常生活中的人與人之間的互動和自然溝通。科技雖然可以把文字和圖像傳送到,卻無法把誠意和真實情感用最真的聲音表達出來。
(p/s: 這個電視專題報導,給了我這一些感想)

Monday, May 23, 2011

Problem with angmo names!

oh u know... there are some friends of mine, suddenly changed to angmo/christian name, made me suddenly don't know who are they at the first moment, and a bit uneasy with them later (when they start to identify themselves as such). I don't know why these person have to do this...because for all these while i know them only through their real name in chinese and in english name as appeared on IC.

Your own original name not cool meh? very hard to pronounce or memorise meh? when change to angmo name, feel more chiu , cool and better meh? I don't understand lah.


Of course that is certainly their choice. But I refuse to follow their step and can't be bothered to change. People know me better as Han here, imagine if i were called Brian, Alan, David , bla bla bla... how could you associate those name with me (and with my identity)? I am proud to be known as Han, as always.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

因為喜歡這幾句話

無論是親人還是陌生人
只要兩顆心 一句關心
誰也可以當上誰的心理醫生

~《你還可愛麼》午後公園 ~
 (p/s: 摘自其中一個香港短片的結尾message) 
李嘉誠基金會「香港仁 愛香港」公益行動
邀請十二位香港導演炮製十二套不一樣的創意短片,展現嶄新感動方程式以喚醒香港人的無限愛心。
 

Different opinions

You are entitled to your own opinions, but I also reserve the rights of expressing mine. If we have to finally agree to disagree, and respect each other's view, then I would make no more effort into persuading you.

(Especially for friends, I put friendship value higher, and usually wouldn't allow argument spoils the friendship. Unless the argument is itself vital for the continuation of friendship)

公在公,私在私

Friday, May 20, 2011

救救《独立》!

《独立新闻在线》给我的影响,远远超越目前我捐助给他们的数目。他们说的:‘过去六年来,我们凭着坚定的专业信念、能力与道德勇气,责无旁贷地为扩展舆论空间与新闻自由而奋斗,屡次果敢而实事求是地揭露各种不公义、违背民主精神、践踏人权与新闻自由之情事’
他们是说到做到的,并给予我们深度的评论和课题分析,让我受益不浅。那么独立,专业和秉持着新闻自由专业负责任启迪明智的中文媒体,哪里还有得找?我们岂能让它就此倒下?(我看到了以前 英文媒体的遭遇,何不让我心寒)
请大家帮帮忙,救救《独立》!请捐助给他们,多多益善。


新闻 

P/s: 一直以来我都是他们长期的自动自愿捐助者,可是看来我的捐助数额还是有限的。

《花水木:依然想念你》(Hanamizuki) 观后感

昨晚,我才刚观赏了这部日本爱情电影 (Hanamizuki)。看了一些影评说,这是一个纯爱的电影--跨越了十年的时空,一对原本同乡的情侣因各怀理想而被迫两地相恋,过后抵挡不了现实的残酷而分离,命运峰回路转最后还是能与最心爱的人在一起走到最后。对于详细的故事,我不好在此阐述了。你们可以先观看这部电影(預告片在此)再参考这两个分析得不错的影评(12)。剧情故事不像一般印象中的爱情故事般的轰轰烈烈,要不然拖泥带水,再不然老套的桥段这故事让人舒服,自然,和有淡淡的清新,也有间中曲折的部分,不少观后还是难忘的镜头(和感觉),轻易地引起我的共鸣。再加上镜头拍摄色彩优美和风景迷人取景自北海道,东京,纽约,和加拿大,在配上搭景的动人soundtrack,让这部电影占据了我心中高分电影的一席位,也就是为什么我会喜欢和推荐这部电影的原因了。

这篇观后感的重点并不在那电影,而是回到了我。我的感触很大部分是源自于我过去拥有的两地相恋。如果你现在问我,我到底还相不相信远距离的恋爱,我的答案还是正面的肯定--相信。我认为,心与心之间的距离才是关键。如果两人相爱心与心紧靠在一起,再远的距离也分不开他们。而现实上,有很多情况,即使是爱人在你身边,如果他/她的心不靠在你这里,分手也是迟早的事。

我喜欢电影中的男女主角对爱的坚持。男主角知道女主角要离开渔村,向往东京大学的理想,心中即使有百般不愿意她走,但是心里还是祝福爱人的梦想,在她面前不止没有阻扰她反而以实际行动鼓励她支持她往更多幸福和梦想的方向飞去。这就是真爱。我曾经也做到这点,没有后悔。

我也欣赏女主角对爱的专一,对爱情的执着,即使在大都市里的诱惑是那么多。她总是认真地去完成她的理想和事业,同时没有放弃远在家乡的爱人,等待着未来的那一天两人的生活和理想回到了交叉点。一个看似不可能的结局---大学学历的高材生怎么能和家乡的渔夫在一起呢?我知道现实情况,很多事情人人认为是不可能的,超现实的。而对我来说,只要双方都把心交出来,相信这个可能,又有什么是不可以做到的?毕竟恋爱是两个人的事,必须同时要有两人的坚持。不可以看小这种坚持因为这种坚持,才会显得爱情的珍贵和爱情的美。

我知道,到了我这个年纪的,要找个纯纯的恋爱似乎有如缘木求鱼。我害怕我会被现实世界中的计算型有条件式的所谓新新恋爱捆绑着因为我担心,那人所爱的可能不完全是我,并没有真正的把心交出来,或许那不是所谓的相爱了。

我知道我是那个,一旦把心交出去,就很难很难收回的人。我坚持过,我相信过,也以为找到了一个与我一样相信永远的另一半。最后没有成功,因为原本希望不变的事物还是变了。那是我心中目前最大的遗憾。如果你再给我一次机会(或给我下次),我还是会是我,一样会为最心爱的人去坚持去相信去奋斗到底的。不是现实教不会我,而是我要活出自己,就要有自己的选择有自己的观念,而不是屈服于现实。

这电影基本上没有卖弄悲情或大起大落的情节一些简单的对白,表情和动作就说明了很多的情感---很自然很原始的情感。虽然最后的结局让男女主角百转千回后重逢在一起,显得比较商业化的安排,不过我还是很欣慰两个真心相爱的人最后可以在一起。有一天,我也希望如此,会有如此的那个她。 =)

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Those days as Special Assistant

After reading my friend's blog (about her work experience), I start to miss those days working for Selangor state government, where I faced different unexpected challenges, handled and analysed a variety of issues & cases, dealt with different people everyday. Those works made me feel like doing something meaningful & contributing positively to the society, environment and democracy -- those things i truly care about.

证明自己

生命中是否有些东西你一直想证明自己,但是其实并没有证明的价值?

其实或许不是能力不及,而是心不在。

我走我的路,我愛我的家。

 (这是重新改装重刊的一篇,因为原先的最初那篇被 blogspot 的错乱系统吞掉了 )

我的博士學程已來到了一半了,上個星期的口試考得還不錯,算是輕騎過關了,成績比我想像中的好很多。

這一再證明了,有些事情或工作,也許我可以勝任,但是我的心從來不屬於那塊田地。

恐蛟龍得雲雨,終非池中物,我知道我可以成就一些更高更遠的事業,尋找那個真正適合我的性格,特長,和抱負的事業,不會喜歡一個人長期悶呆在實驗室裏。我喜歡思考辯論,喜歡看待和 分析大局,喜歡接觸群衆,見人溝通作思想交流,喜歡用我的熱忱去做一些東西可以帶來實質的改變,然後直接從受惠受益的群衆得到微笑的肯定,帶來歡樂和意 義。

我知道當初選擇這條路,畢竟是我自己的選擇,沒有理由可以後悔和怪誰。也許是到了這個博士階段 ,才看得清楚自己究竟喜歡些什麽,想要些什麽。或許這與目前德國這裡的生活經歷和環境有關,使我對科學殘留的熱忱逐漸地被消耗磨滅。又或許是因爲當初我在 倫敦碩士班遇到了恩師和伯樂,給我極大的鼓舞和支持,賦予我在科研方面的重大意義,點燃我當時為科研的熱忱和傻勁。我有一班非常要好同甘共苦的系友,有一 個大家庭式互相關愛的研究院同事和朋友。那段碩士時光是我求學里程中最快樂的短暫日子,所以才滿懷期望繼續了博士這條路。但是,我不知道,碩士和博士原來 是完全不可同日而語。在博士歲月裡,不只是我,我不少的前碩士系友也有同感(那天在倫敦與他們暢談互怨才發覺原來不開心不得意鬱鬱不得志的,也不只是 我)。

我沒有說我後悔這決定,畢竟這是一個人生的嘗試,正因爲嘗試過才知道自己其實真正要些什麽,適合什麽,追求些什麽抱負理想和人生意義。

當然會繼續我的博士,直到完成和畢業。以後我有興趣和嚮往做一些跨領域的工作,最好可以結合目前我有的科學知識和專業技能,然後與管理,領導或(政策)策劃相關 的工作。也許很多人會認爲我一定去參政非去跑政治最前綫不可,其實我目前並沒有如此的想法。我覺得,我未必要成爲議員才可以有成就。那些成爲議員的,通常 都會過忙,漸漸地陷入黨派政黨政治的鬥爭也許最後會忘記了當初的理想。而我是很理想派的,我比較希望能保留和運用我的專業和良知來'參政',尤其是影響政 策的制定。兩個我比較有興趣的方向,就是大馬的科研發展和醫藥改革,因爲那些是最符合目前我的專業的。

我明白這類型的工作是可遇不可求的。尤其是在現時馬來西亞的大環境下,找個理想的工作養活自己,然後再創造良好的條件爲了組織未來的家庭,其實一點都不簡單。

马来西亚是我的家。

为什么是我必需要离开我家?为什么该离开的不是现在不公平的政府?

不怪我那些已是专业人士的朋友总是抱怨马来西亚(政府)的不好,对他们何等的不公平待遇。他们一直很想离开这里,寻找外面更美好的天空。这是正常有事业上 进心人都会如此想的事。现在他们的待遇难道是他们应得的吗?又怎么能忍心怪他们欲离开的念头呢?爱国论又可以绑住多少人的心呢?

去过了国外,来到了西方世界,在两个不同的国家住了6年了,你问我他们(西方人)真的有如此那么好,那么强,那么厉害吗?我倒不觉得,反而我想问的是,我 们国家土地有,丰富资源有,聪明人刻苦耐劳的人都有,独特的多元文化语言社会,食物那么好吃,那么美丽的国家,为什么我们的国家还是会比人家差呢?这是我 们马来西亚人应得的结果吗?


在外面闯了那么多年,家永远还是家,一个归属的地方。回家的感觉最好。

无论最后我的事业在哪里发展也好,我还是心系家乡,等待着最好的机会回家 -- 为理想,为家庭,为社会,为国家。我爱我的国家,我要成为协助参与建设发展国家的一份子。我不是逃兵,我是爱国者。

Bad mood because of bad performance

Sometimes you might hope that one more day things would get better, one more chance things wouldn't be the same. But the reality is, you don't have one more day or one more chance. You must perform and deliver that, when the time comes.
(I regret that i didn't today)
遇到挫折感时,谁还会是我的精神寄托?

帮朋友想的反稀土辐射运动的中文标语口号

毒辐射?不如众乐乐! (当时想到俗语说:“独乐乐不如众乐乐”)

'爱我环境一万年,不要害我子孙一万年'

Monday, May 16, 2011

重逢伦敦

慕然回首,曾几何时伦敦是载着我多少的梦想,希望和憧憬的地方啊!人生多少的欢乐时光光辉岁月是在那里度过的。只是现在的伦敦对我来说,既熟悉又陌生。

那里过去的种种生活痕迹还在,但已物是人非了。我已不属于那里的了,如今我只是个暂时的旅客和时光的过客。

Monday, May 09, 2011

客观不等于中立

客观不等于中立,中立也不代表客观。

这句话尤其是针对那些不选择立场(或没立场或含糊立场),爱各打五十大板,口中爱呈现‘中立’的人士。

Sunday, May 08, 2011

理想派 II

没有理想派的推动,这个现实世界是不会有多少的改变和进步的。

(当然不是叫你不切实际地好高骛远...达至理想是一定要用对的策略克服现实的障碍的)

Saturday, May 07, 2011

理想派

在这年头,当很多人宁愿向现实低头放弃当初的理想,我应更坚定我的信念。
 我是死忠的理想派,相信很多理想并不是不可能实现,而是有人没有尽心尽力去尝试就先放弃了。

Thursday, May 05, 2011

Angry for a reason (or many reasons)


In reference to the blog post above, I believe the author tends to simplify things, and not going into analysing the phenomenon of the emotions of the rally crowd in details. Emotions appear only on the surface, people don’t get angry just because of the rally talks, rather they agree from the bottom of heart with the analysis of the speakers.  That doesn’t mean that they all are obsessively emotional and not thinking seriously for what it really matters or means to them.  In a democratic country, where the people can freely participate in politics or policy formulation, still they show emotions to what favour them and what does not.  They believe that, if the ruling party doesn’t concern about their causes, or take care of their interests, some of them (who maybe are the disappointed long-term supporters) choose to negotiate or pressure the ruling party to compromise into giving grounds (very often if the party refuses to oblige, they must decide it based on some other conflicting interests); some of them who do not see hope in the changes forthcoming from that ruling party they could go to the other competing party who can promise and champion their cause. In the end, democratic free and fair election is the only game in town to resolve all these conflicts to a certain extent. People can exert their free will and judgment into some representatives can truly represent their voices, and thus influence the making of new policies to deal with certain critical issues or concerns of people. 

In a semi-democratic country like Singapore,  to change within the system, if it were truly could be done, and people still lay hopes on that, I guess more of the people would choose this easier path to achieve the goals, and therefore people would be expected to be less angry towards the ruling party (government before the election, now interim not incumbent ). The reasoning is simple, because of the heavy tilted advantages (read: unfair and not-free election to a large significant extent) towards the ruling party, the ruling party will be almost certain to restore the power after the election, people choose cooperation would be easier to get what they wanted. Their causes and concerns, I believe, are what matter to them the most, and they don’t care which party as long as the party supports and listening their voices.

I think this explains why the people are angry or emotional… they are simply disappointed or disillusioned or lose hope in the ruling party that they can truly represent their voices, and implement the change they would like to see. If those were just petty issues, or non-political issues, it would be silly for singaporeans to express their dissatisfaction against the big-bro government for the fear of serious repercussion. The opposition parties would not be easily ‘inciting’ the emotions, certainly cannot fool the smart and calculative Singaporeans, if the undercurrent dissatisfaction of how life and politics go in Singapore on the ground simply doesn’t exist. If the previous government has done well all the time and capable at fixing the problems/issues raised by oppositions, they certainly have less to worry and sure they are still popular. If the indication points out that the government has failed and no (or less) indication of changes on offer, not blaming the ruling party then blame who? In the end, who is in power to formulate and enforce the policies to take care of the citizens in all aspects?

Therefore voting for opposition parties, signify the ruling party (if they still go on and win the elections) that the grassroot grouses can be ignored at their own peril, and let the capable new voices to perform and represent them, to push for the changes they would like to see. Voting for opposition, could probably be an informed decision, and cannot be regarded as 'not voting wisely' or emotional votes (that is why Malaysian ruling coalition BN always in denial). Remember, the result of the general election should always reflect the situation on the ground at that particular period of recent time (eg. 4-5 years performance of the last term), disregard the glorious past and how much the ruling party has been contributing to this country since independence. A political party must keep up the pace, evolve and be forward looking at shaping the future of the nation and society.

Always with good check and balance, the democracy is healthy and thriving and eventually beneficial to the people. Somehow I believe Singaporean politicians can carry out their responsibility professionally. So, make an informed decision and vote wisely!

(p/s: sure, voting for the ruling party could also be a wise and informed decision, i don't deny that, as long as you can also reason that out...after all, democracy cannot be just having one voice-- that is fake!)

(p/s 2: sure, that is not my country, people may condemn me for not fully understanding about their nation before comment, therefore i make quite an principal theoretical statement responses to that blog, from the standpoint of what democracy, election, and government mean. I will not go through point to point rebuttal of that blog, but many of the author's arguments i found are flaw, just reflects that she doesn't fully understand or appreciate the values of democracy and what are the responsibilities or functions of government.)

(p/s 3: For the case of my country and state, so far (and most likely still be valid at the point of next election) I would definitely vote for current PR state government (ruling parties) and vote against BN federal government. That is simply not emotional... i have too many reasons to do and say so. You would see how my argument and testimony work for the incumbent Selangor State government. 8-) )

Sunday, May 01, 2011

Everything you do, every word you say

Never underestimate your influence and significance to others, at least the people around you. Every action and every word from you, may mean something to somebody.